What a Douche Bag Weekend....

Phase I: My Boyfriend

.... He made me cry. *insert sad face*

Phase II: The BBQ
-we got lost....I wasted two miles of my life.
-What the hell is the Lower East Side?
answer: Where they stash spanish people and rats.

-Who were the army of skanks? Someone had to have herpes... I could feel it in the air.

-Ok so dude where's my piece of chicken?

-did he just cover up my text message?.... frickin douchebag.

- Oh you think I'm cute, where the hell is my piece of chicken?

-We are so outta here, wait, where's my glasses??

Bitch betta not have stole my Pradas.

-What the eff is the M146 bus??

-Delancey?? oh no Delancey here...just rats.

-Mickey D's.... *insert heaven sound*

- where the hell did you find Top Pop??

- Wooh, was that all I did Saturday?

Answer: YUP!

Phase III: Summer Interns

Euphie is going to bag all of them.

Some dude who obviously had a girlfriend who he illegitimately broke up with for the summer, only after admitted that he was only attracted to her for her sex drive who I told numerous times I had a boyfriend.... he was still flirting....fricking douchebag.

aminem gets tea bagged by cultural ass sore, Sacha Baron Cohen....ha ha hilarious but still great!


When my roommate's ask how was this reason....I will be like ehhhhhh wink wink

Eminem gets TEA BAGGED!!!

Eminem is probably so frickin tight... classic Gen Y stuff LMAO

Even the Truth is a Lie

Truth: I have the exact change to pay for my fifth new pair of shoes in the last 30 days.

Lie: I just spent some of that money to climb my way out of debt.

Truth: I am a fashion student, has great style and many of my teachers say I have immense potential.

Lie: I am horribly lazy and has yet to receive an outstanding grade in any of my sewing classes.

Truth: I am a hustler and will find a way to find the money to find a way to entertain myself and get what I want.

Lie: Most of the time, that money comes from my mommy, my aunt, or my granny. So in reality, I am just spoiled and always think I should get what I want.

Truth: I have a very affectionate boyfriend who I see fairly often.

Lie: At this point, we break up everyday and I think he is quite over the relationship. There is a chance that I just verbally attack him and corner him into being with me.


Truth: My boyfriend loves me.

Lie: He also said he loved me, the exact same day he kissed a girl in his math class.

Truth: I get dressed everyday and go outside.

Lie: Most of the time, I am not going anywhere that I need to go.

Truth: I am young, beautiful, and stylish living in New York.

Lie: All of that does not equal half of the accomplishments many of peers have already achieved.

Nothing is as it seems, and sometimes a smile is masking a smirk. Sometimes love can be masking deceit. Sometimes we can overcompensate to distract from our shortcomings. I'm not exactly sure what everyone else's story is. Mine is of a little girl that never understands what is a truth and what is a lie. It's never that black and white........

Myabe the truth is a lie.

You Want to Know a Beautiful Song??

So I have never listened to more Day 26 than the last week. I have to commend Q and Dawn for putting together such honest lyrics with much sensuality..... Real love can be inspiring.




My wide eyes straight with red lines
Visions of me and you
Shattered in a day like broken glass


Perfectly blind (said i'm perfectly blind)
Perfectly blind (please somebody help me)
Perfectly blind (i need an answer)
Perfectly blind perfectly

Mind is worn heart is torn
Violently craving
A substitute for you (a substitute)

These eyes see darkness
These eyes see through
These eyes are begging
These eyes are you

Perfectly blind( perfectly blind)
Perfectly blind (oh)
Perfectly blind i don't know what i'm gonna do right now
Perfectly blind (said i am)

Would you take me as i am?
I'm just a scarred man
These hands need your guidance
Take me past my circumstance

Perfectly blind (blind)
Perfectly blind i cannot see anything when your around me
Perfectly blind (so blind)
Perfectly blind (so oh oh)

So blind so blind so blind so blind
But it's okay (but it's okay)
I wanna be lost in you (lost in you)
I wanna be lost in you
Feel free to lead me where ever you want me to go
And yes i'm going to follow (follow) oh oh



Cop that Day 26 "Forever in a Day"----Instant R&B classic.

Happy 4-20: Bob Marley. Damn didn't he sing about love??

The next chapter of my life has begun.

For better or for worse.

New place...(Them b*tches moved me GRRRRR)

No more boyfriend. He decided he was no longer in love....Day 26 is helping me through it.

::sigh::

It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.

Well in my case, I can throw BANDAGE over myself and fake pretend like it doesn't eat me alive.
.... P.S. I hate you.

I have bags like Saturn rings around my eyes... Yes I cry and I'm not ashamed of it. (P.S. it's your fault)

Insomnia keeps my mind active....so does late night television. (P.S. you never watch T.V. with me)


Oh.

and.

AND.

And.

AnD.

P.S. I'm still not over you.

Question of the Day?

Who are you?

I know me.

But who are you??

When it Rains, it Pours

School:

5 classes

4 hours each

4 days a week...Monday through Thursday


Mother:

Pissed cause I failed a class.

Pissed me off.

Still tries to control every single aspect of my life despite the fact that life will deal me my consequences.

Cut me off. Great.

More stressful than helpful.

Remember that you birth me, I didn't birth you. ----Her exact words.

Him:

No trust.

Enough said.

Too many bullets hit me at one time.

Solo Dolo

As of today,

Guess what?

I am single. To be honest, my "relationship" was weaker than henny and water and I'm feeling like a waste of time. I had to admit that at one point, I was floating on a cloud of infatuation and true feelings. I have definitely come to a crossroads in life. I am no longer under that under the umbrella that comes with being someone. Yes, it is going to rain. I will cry, hell it hurts and I'm partially human. Strength in this sense was my weakness. I cannot accept weak game. I liked someone who was a compulsive liar, bit promiscous, and didn't have a clue about his own life. What did I really expect? Did I expect to turn an one night stand into a relationship. (Yeah I said it) Did I really expect to turn a random encounter with a stranger to turn into true love?? Honestly, I heard the words come out of my mouth and instantly was not sure if I meant it. Not that I didnt care but was it really that crucial? I dunno. I was sick and tired of being his girlfriend but the thought of him being with someone gets under my skin. But the interest was fading, the trust was dead. Kinda like my laptop that recently lost control of its hard drive. Trust is the hard drive to a "relationship" and ours was worthless. It was already cheap to begin with and now it finally has stopped beating. After an one hundred failed attempts, we have successfully broke up, (He dumped me) To no one's surprise, especially not mine. I really needed to let it go but that is something I don't do.


it's raining now but eventually the sun come out.

I'll shine eventually but my bulb has been blown out. lights out.